This is true. We joke to hide our feelings but we are all pulling for you brother.
We are all still worried about you Robert...none of us can focus for more than 30 seconds or so though!
Thank, you guys. I am really humbled by your well wishes. Truly I am.
I have been totally out of it the past couple of days. I think it's been a couple of days, but I am really not sure where this span of time went. I ended up having to go back to the hospital for some supervised treatment. I came home again with a prescription for a ridiculously low Mg of Kadian (C17H19NO3/2•H2SO4•5H2O) - which I initially rejected - but the burning/bladder inflated to 100psi and not being able to pee without pain made me somewhat less resistive to the drug. Yesterday, was my first day off the opioid and I laid around in bed the entire day. I still felt stoned, but the pain was greatly subsided and I started to feel better.
While in the hospital, I hummed a tune into my cell phone, which I recorded yesterday while still quite zoned. I will have to share it with you guys.
So, here is what happened....
Long periods of exhaustion, lack of sleep, hyperactivity, excessive caffeine intake culminated in dehydration. The reduced urine output caused the bladder to become a septic tank and this spread to the kidneys and into the bloodstream, although we were fortunate to have caught it so early, as I self-admitted the same day i felt like something 'wasn't cricket' so to speak.
They kept adding bag after bag of sodium chloride 6% trying t get my resting heart rate (RHR) below 120 and it wouldn't come down. I told the Doc that in my military service, this was noted and as a kid, I had a RHR of 150-160 out of pathological fear of a medical facility. I told the Doc that if he brought my wife in, I could guarantee him 30-40bpm reduction. he said, "Bull

! You can't control your heart rate." But, the PA was cool and brought my wife and daughter in and within a minute or so, I was registering 89-92bpm. The doctor just said, "I've never seen anything like this in my career." I told him, "I'm more chronically molested up in the head than any of your other patients, but I am no bull

ter."