RIP Kev

[Jethro Rocker]

I just read you message and im laughing. The fact that he just randomly sent you that sums him up in a nutshell.
I don't mind if you share it.

Here it is... funny stuff...

Not every flower can say love, but a rose can. Not every plant survives thirst, but a cactus can. Not every retard can read, but look at you go, little buddy!
Today you should take a moment and send an encouraging message to a f*cked up friend, just as I’ve done. I don’t care if you lick windows, or interfere with farm animals.
You hang in there cupcake, you’re f*cking special to me, you’re my friend, look at you smiling at your phone! You crayon eating bastard!

 

[CoyotesGator]

 

[Ramo]

Rest in peace Kev. You’ll be missed for sure.

 

[Kev]

This has still got me really screwed up. I've been so pissed off at AMS for his stupid thoughtless comment that I haven't been able to take the time to process it. I feel like I've lost a close family member, it feels the same way. I could deal with Kev disappearing for a while, but I always knew he'd be back eventually. It sucks knowing he won't be back. There's a hole in the brotherhood. I don't know if this song is really appropriate in this situation, but it's been stuck in my head for days now while I'm thinking about all the good times we had.

Oh-whoa-oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh-whoa-oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I (oh-whoa-oh) I (oh, oh, oh) I (oh, oh) I
I (oh-whoa-oh) I (oh, oh, oh) I (oh, oh) I

Saw the wanderin' eye, inside my heart
Shouts and battle cries, from every part
I can see those tears, every one is true
When the door appears, I'll go right through, ooh

I stand in liquid light, like everyone
Built my life with rhymes, to carry on
And it gives me hope, to see you there
The things I used to know, that one fine

One fine day
One fine day

In a small dark room, where I will wait
Face to face I find, I contemplate
Even though a man, is made of clay
Everything can change, that one fine

One fine day
One fine day
One fine day

Then before my eyes, is standing still
I beheld it there, a city on a hill
I complete my tasks, one by one
I remove my masks, when I am done

Then a piece of mind, fell over me
In these troubled times, I still can see
We can use the stars, to guide the way
It is not that far, the one fine

One fine day
One fine day
One fine day
One fine day

Oh-whoa-oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh-whoa-oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I (oh-whoa-oh) I ya (oh, oh, oh) I (oh, oh) I ya
I (oh-whoa-oh) I ya (oh, oh, oh) I (oh, oh) I ya
I (oh-whoa-oh) I ya (oh, oh, oh) I (oh, oh) I ya
I (oh-whoa-oh) I ya (oh, oh, oh) I (oh, oh) I ya
Oh-whoa-oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Steve, I'm sorry it affected you like that and to be honest, for me personally, it was very jarring to read and I got really upset at the time but for the sake of Kevin's memory and the harmony of his thread im willing to give the benefit. I know it affected you and I admire your stance in sticking up for both me and Kevin but I would prefer it if you could get to deal with your grief without unwelcome distractions. I think everyone at some point has said something stupid or spoken out of turn. People make mistakes.
And let's face it, you can't be married to Kevin for as long as I was and be thin skinned.


On the subject of songs, I agree certain songs can have a massive impact at particular times.
Just after the accident when Kevin was still critical, in a coma and literally fighting for his life, I was sitting at his bedside basically willing him to live and Don't Give Up by Peter Gabriel and Kate Bush came on the radio at the nurses station. When Kate Bush sung her parts it affected me profoundly. I don't think now that I could ever listen to that song again

 

[DirtySteve]

Steve, I'm sorry it affected you like that and to be honest, for me personally, it was very jarring to read and I got really upset at the time but for the sake of Kevin's memory and the harmony of his thread im willing to give the benefit. I know it affected you and I admire your stance in sticking up for both me and Kevin but I would prefer it if you could get to deal with your grief without unwelcome distractions. I think everyone at some point has said something stupid or spoken out of turn. People make mistakes.
And let's face it, you can't be married to Kevin for as long as I was and be thin skinned.


On the subject of songs, I agree certain songs can have a massive impact at particular times.
Just after the accident when Kevin was still critical, in a coma and literally fighting for his life, I was sitting at his bedside basically willing him to live and Don't Give Up by Peter Gabriel and Kate Bush came on the radio at the nurses station. When Kate Bush sung her parts it affected me profoundly. I don't think now that I could ever listen to that song again

I'm sorry it was upsetting for you to read. I almost came back and deleted it last night, but I didn't and this morning I wished I had even before I saw your FB message or anything. It had been up all night by then. I also didn't consider that you would see it because I thought that you told me you had actually logged out and didn't plan to come back, but now I realize it was a misunderstanding on my part. I won't post anything like that again, it's over.

To be honest, there was a little alcohol involved. Sorry.

 

[Kev]

I'm sorry it was upsetting for you to read. I almost came back and deleted it last night, but I didn't and this morning I wished I had even before I saw your FB message or anything. It had been up all night by then. I also didn't consider that you would see it because I thought that you told me you had actually logged out and didn't plan to come back, but now I realize it was a misunderstanding on my part. I won't post anything like that again, it's over.

To be honest, there was a little alcohol involved. Sorry.

Steve, no, you've got me all wrong. I don't have any issue with anything you've posted whatsoever. Quite the opposite in fact.
I was referring to that other comment and i was basically saying im over it and wanted you to do the same.
You have absolutely no reason to apologise to me.

 

[DirtySteve]

Steve, no, you've got me all wrong. I don't have any issue with anything you've posted whatsoever. Quite the opposite in fact.
I was referring to that other comment and i was basically saying im over it and wanted you to do the same.
You have absolutely no reason to apologise to me.

Ok, whew, I thought it was the post itself and I did think I could have gone without saying that again.

 

[4STICKS]

Guys, I have been reading your posts since the last time I was here and the level of compassion on display is absolutely wonderful. It's abundantly clear the regard in which he was held.
Kevin was an excellent judge of character and kept his circle small so if he invested his time in maintaining these friendships then that more than enough for me.
Some of your posts deserve an individual reply and I promise I'll get round to it. Thank you.

Just wanted to let you (and everyone else) know that I messaged thatbastarddon and requested Kev's name and avatar be pot in the righthand side bar for fallen stars. He said he got in touch with the guy that does that and he said yes. However that guy is going on vacation and he said it should show up next month.

 

[DirtySteve]

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[Kev]

I get it Steve. My whole world has been on pause since I heard the news.

It's weird because I really didn't know Kev but at the surface level, but I keep thinking that it affected me more than it should. It's been a weird week. I keep saying that the world will level out and get a semblance of normalcy, but it just keeps getting wierder by the day. I can't say that it has affected me as much as those close to him, because it just couldn't. I can say, since I've lost someone else extremely close that things do get better and only in the sense that the hurt from losing slowly morphs into joyous memories and longing. At least for me that is how things have changed.

As I'm drinking a fine Scotland single-malt tonight, I remember the good times and tearful laughter that Kev gave to me and us. I cannot count the number of times reading his derails in forums had me choking with laughter, tears streaming down my face and the wife asking me, "wtf is wrong with you!?!?" The solace and comfort I have is knowing that I need to pass that along to people around me so that, if they could experience a mere sliver of his good humor and cheeky commentary, the world will be a slightly better place.

yes, those are tears in my eye, and btw, FU. RIP Kev.

Thank you

 

[Don O]

I share this here for all the close friends of Kevin, as I did not know him other than his posting here. But friendship is universal and it’s how I felt when we lost Robert, Inspector#20, a close friend of mine. This was written by the singer in our band, a very talented musician and song writer. He never met Robert, but wrote this from stories I told him about Robert. I shared this with Robert’s mom and she was so moved by it she included it in Robert’s celebration of life.

This seems to be very appropriate for you and Kevin too.

 

[Alex_SG]

I just got word that our brother Kev had a second heart attack that he didn't recover from and he passed away on July 30th.

Kev was my very first forum friend, I've known him since 2010 when I met him on the Marshall Forum. ...very sad. RIP my brother.

I’m so sorry to hear about Kev. Rest in peace, brother.

 

[4STICKS]

Here it is... funny stuff...

Not every flower can say love, but a rose can. Not every plant survives thirst, but a cactus can. Not every retard can read, but look at you go, little buddy!
Today you should take a moment and send an encouraging message to a f*cked up friend, just as I’ve done. I don’t care if you lick windows, or interfere with farm animals.
You hang in there cupcake, you’re f*cking special to me, you’re my friend, look at you smiling at your phone! You crayon eating bastard!

That's so Kev...I posted in the MF that it makes me incredibly sad to know that Kev will never insult me again.

( the three emojis reflect the rollercoaster of emotions I been riding since hearing the awful news)

 

[DirtySteve]

That's so Kev...I posted in the MF that it makes me incredibly sad to know that Kev will never insult me again.

( the three emojis reflect the rollercoaster of emotions I been riding since hearing the awful news)

That's why I wish Gainjunkies was still up so Elaine could see all those posts. That was where we really had fun without any moderation to worry about and the whole gang was there. Kev really wasn't on this forum very much or for as long. I don't know what might be left on the Marshall forum after all this time.

 

[4STICKS]

That's why I wish Gainjunkies was still up so Elaine could see all those posts. That was where we really had fun without any moderation to worry about and the whole gang was there. Kev really wasn't on this forum very much or for as long. I don't know what might be left on the Marshall forum after all this time.

It really was a magical and special time.

 

[4STICKS]

I'd love to reread the thread where Kev threw himself on his big ass Braveheart sword for me and asked to be banned after (and because) they banned me.

THAT'S the kind of friend he was.

 

[DirtySteve]

I'd love to reread the thread where Kev threw himself on his big ass Braveheart sword for me and asked to be banned after (and because) they banned me.

THAT'S the kind of friend he was.

Do remember when that happened? The year? I'm wondering why not so many seem to remember him over there, it must have been longer ago than I thought and there's been a lot of turnover since then. I think most of the guys that post regularly are newer than when Kev was there, but I didn't think it had been THAT long.

 

[4STICKS]

Do remember when that happened? The year? I'm wondering why not so many seem to remember him over there, it must have been longer ago than I thought and there's been a lot of turnover since then. I think most of the guys that post regularly are newer than when Kev was there, but I didn't think it had been THAT long.

sometime around 2015, maybe?

 

[DirtySteve]

sometime around 2015, maybe?

Wow...ok, that explains a lot. I didn't know it had been that long. That was before my PTSD, almost heart attack and the stroke that wiped a lot of bits and pieces of my memory. It's no wonder it's a blur...

 

[4STICKS]

Wow...ok, that explains a lot. I didn't know it had been that long. That was before my PTSD, almost heart attack and the stroke that wiped a lot of bits and pieces of my memory. It's no wonder it's a blur...

yeah, it was waaaaaaay before all that...as a matter of fact, I think it was before you came and stayed with us the second time, but I could be wrong about that. Come to think about it, it may have been before the first time you came because I remember that time, me and you were both on gainjunkies on two different computers and talking to Bob on the phone.