It Has Been 3 Years Today...

BlackSG91

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On March 20 of 2015 my wife passed away from cancer. Today marks 3 years since her passing. She was such a wonderful woman and I still miss her very much to this day. She was very spiritual and prayed everyday for both of us. I sometimes feel empty without her but I know she is in a better place watching over me...she's my guardian angel.

My mother passed away about 2 months before her on January 24 of 2015. My wife arranged the funeral for my mother and it was sure a hard day for me at the time. Then when I heard news of my wife passing away I was devastated! She was living with her sister at the time in Toronto, Ontario because she was close to the hospital where she was getting treatment. She only had the chemo treatment and not radiation because it would make her very sick.

My wife battled cancer back in 2010 and beat it. It was a blood cancer called lymphoma and I believe it was type T which was serious. Of course the cancer returned late 2014/early 2015 and since she opted out for the radiation she didn't have much of a chance. She wasn't afraid of death and she believed in heaven above.

We married back in November of 2007 and she was such a wonderful woman who was part of my life. She was my future and we had plans on moving out west to the province of Alberta. We had our rocky moments throughout the marriage but overall we got along great and she always inspired me. She said that she was my blessing and she couldn't be anymore correct.

As most of you know I've battled alcoholism to deal with her death and my mother's also. I've used alcohol as a crutch but in the long run it was destroying me. I've been clean from alcohol for over 27 weeks now and I think my wife would be proud of me. Like I said she is watching over me and she would have wanted for me a happy life.

I wish I could still share my life with her today but I keep her in my heart and always remember the good times we had together. She was special and I don't think anyone could replace her. I feel sometimes I took her for granted when she was alive but now that she is gone I realize that every moment you spend with your loved one is precious and should NOT be taken for granted. She was the best thing to ever come into my life and God bless her very much.


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On March 20 of 2015 my wife passed away from cancer. Today marks 3 years since her passing. She was such a wonderful woman and I still miss her very much to this day. She was very spiritual and prayed everyday for both of us. I sometimes feel empty without her but I know she is in a better place watching over me...she's my guardian angel.

My mother passed away about 2 months before her on January 24 of 2015. My wife arranged the funeral for my mother and it was sure a hard day for me at the time. Then when I heard news of my wife passing away I was devastated! She was living with her sister at the time in Toronto, Ontario because she was close to the hospital where she was getting treatment. She only had the chemo treatment and not radiation because it would make her very sick.

My wife battled cancer back in 2010 and beat it. It was a blood cancer called lymphoma and I believe it was type T which was serious. Of course the cancer returned late 2014/early 2015 and since she opted out for the radiation she didn't have much of a chance. She wasn't afraid of death and she believed in heaven above.

We married back in November of 2007 and she was such a wonderful woman who was part of my life. She was my future and we had plans on moving out west to the province of Alberta. We had our rocky moments throughout the marriage but overall we got along great and she always inspired me. She said that she was my blessing and she couldn't be anymore correct.

As most of you know I've battled alcoholism to deal with her death and my mother's also. I've used alcohol as a crutch but in the long run it was destroying me. I've been clean from alcohol for over 27 weeks now and I think my wife would be proud of me. Like I said she is watching over me and she would have wanted for me a happy life.

I wish I could still share my life with her today but I keep her in my heart and always remember the good times we had together. She was special and I don't think anyone could replace her. I feel sometimes I took her for granted when she was alive but now that she is gone I realize that every moment you spend with your loved one is precious and should NOT be taken for granted. She was the best thing to ever come into my life and God bless her very much.


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I am sad to hear of this....all the best to you my friend.
 
I cant believe it has been THREE YEARS......

What Hack said .....and thank you for being here and sharing with US bunch of whackos .

Very glad to have to have you Black--- KEEP strong --- and ROCK ON! :)
 
I don’t think I have anything truly wise to say...
Black, you’ve been entertaining to me since the first time I read one of your posts.
You’ve obviously been through some stuff over the last few years, but you can still make a crack like a champ. Thanks for making the effort to turn around and make a joke now and then...
 
Thanks for all your replies and support...it really means a lot to me. I was feeling pretty depressed earlier but now I don't feel too bad. I was almost tempted to buy a few beers at the liquor store earlier but I resisted the temptation because I did not want to dissapoint my wife and others around me.

I try now to live my life without major worries and make each day a pleasant day. Life is sometimes too short to have useless worries that hinder your day. I like to say again thanks for all your support...you guys are great and I'm glad to be on this forum! A lot of you have great insight into music as a whole. It's good to part of a community forum like this one.:):gotta-love:


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Thanks for all your replies and support...it really means a lot to me. I was feeling pretty depressed earlier but now I don't feel too bad. I was almost tempted to buy a few beers at the liquor store earlier but I resisted the temptation because I did not want to dissapoint my wife and others around me.

I try now to live my life without major worries and make each day a pleasant day. Life is sometimes too short to have useless worries that hinder your day. I like to say again thanks for all your support...you guys are great and I'm glad to be on this forum! A lot of you have great insight into music as a whole. It's good to part of a community forum like this one.:):gotta-love:


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I am sorry you have so much pain. I hope it gets easier every day. Your strength in character has allowed you to begin to rise up again. Your sobriety is a big part of your foundation moving forward.

As for me personally, I would like to say thank you. I can get beaten down by the battle that is being a grown up in this life. Your posts and your presence on this forum have put a smile on my face on many of those occassions when I could not find one for myself.

Stay strong brother. Rejoice, rejoice, we have no choice, but to carry on

 
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