Battling Alcoholism...

BlackSG91 said:
Thanks jjudas for posting your story. I was the same way when I was drinking...didn't pick up my guitar much. I would drink a few shots of rum and pass out in bed just enough to help me sleep. If I didn't have alcohol I would have a hard time of sleeping. I couldn't wait for the liquor store to open in the morning which was 9:30 a.m. Then when I got home I would start with a few shots just enough to get a buzz and then just lie in bed. Those days are over now & I try to keep active everyday. I play my guitar in the evenings and go to bed early for a good night's sleep. I keep a daily schedule which helps keep my mind off alcohol. Life without alcohol can be good.:)


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Black, I was listening to one of my favorite Grateful Dead songs on You tube and saw this comment from one listener.


I think he said it well and it made me think of you. Hope you can follow a positive path like this fella did!!!!

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2 years ago
This song literally turned my life around. After a break up, I was so lost, I turned to heavy drugs and lots of them to ease the pain of years of hard work and love and I found out I was being used and cheated on. I lied in bed for days, doing nothing. The lyrics "walk out of any doorway. Feel your way, feel your way like the day before. Maybe you'll find direction around some corner where it's been waiting to meet you" brought a tear to my eye as I realized how stupid my choices were. It made me love myself, love those around me and changed my perspective on life. I am glad to say that I am now years clean, top of my class in an ems based class, national honor society, and I've just received an email telling me I qualify to take a state test to become an EMT. I also spread peace and love amongst everyone. I owe my life to the grateful dead for pulling me out of the biggest hole I've ever dug for myself. Completely changed me for the better. I hope to see them in July for their last shows ever and at least express my gratitude for them"
 
chilipeppermaniac said:
Black, I was listening to one of my favorite Grateful Dead songs on You tube and saw this comment from one listener.


I think he said it well and it made me think of you. Hope you can follow a positive path like this fella did!!!!

"

2 years ago
This song literally turned my life around. After a break up, I was so lost, I turned to heavy drugs and lots of them to ease the pain of years of hard work and love and I found out I was being used and cheated on. I lied in bed for days, doing nothing. The lyrics "walk out of any doorway. Feel your way, feel your way like the day before. Maybe you'll find direction around some corner where it's been waiting to meet you" brought a tear to my eye as I realized how stupid my choices were. It made me love myself, love those around me and changed my perspective on life. I am glad to say that I am now years clean, top of my class in an ems based class, national honor society, and I've just received an email telling me I qualify to take a state test to become an EMT. I also spread peace and love amongst everyone. I owe my life to the grateful dead for pulling me out of the biggest hole I've ever dug for myself. Completely changed me for the better. I hope to see them in July for their last shows ever and at least express my gratitude for them"
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That was a good tune chilli by The Grateful Dead...always liked that band but I don't think I've heard that tune before. And thanks for your post which is inspiring. It almost describes me when I was drinking where I would lie in bed for days. I would have a few shots of rum and just lay in bed trying to get some sleep which I had a hard time doing unless I had alcohol in my system. It was a cycle at the time that I felt I could not break and I was wasting my life away. I'm glad now that I broke that cycle and I keep myself active everyday with a positive attitude. I still get mild temptations but I resist them as much as I can because I know if I have one beer or any other alcoholic drink it could trigger my disorder to drink heavily again. I never want to go back to the hospital again and come close to death like I almost did. It was scary at the time but it was a wake-up call for me that will stick in my head for a very long time. Life can be good without substance abuse and like you said I hope I can follow a positive path and keep on it for good. Thanks me little BIG buddy for the words and music of encouragement.


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BlackSG91 said:
That was a good tune chilli by The Grateful Dead...always liked that band but I don't think I've heard that tune before. And thanks for your post which is inspiring. It almost describes me when I was drinking where I would lie in bed for days. I would have a few shots of rum and just lay in bed trying to get some sleep which I had a hard time doing unless I had alcohol in my system. It was a cycle at the time that I felt I could not break and I was wasting my life away. I'm glad now that I broke that cycle and I keep myself active everyday with a positive attitude. I still get mild temptations but I resist them as much as I can because I know if I have one beer or any other alcoholic drink it could trigger my disorder to drink heavily again. I never want to go back to the hospital again and come close to death like I almost did. It was scary at the time but it was a wake-up call for me that will stick in my head for a very long time. Life can be good without substance abuse and like you said I hope I can follow a positive path and keep on it for good. Thanks me little BIG buddy for the words and music of encouragement.


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You are quite welcome Bro Black. No one deserves a horrific fate such as death from bad chemicals. So glad your life was spared and you can live a full life instead of debilitating effects and near death in that hospital.
 
Well I believe today marks my 26th week of sobriety. Since there are 52 weeks in a year it's been a half-year already! I can't believe how time sure flies. I am so glad that I'm not dependant on alcohol the way I was. I hate to think of how I was in the past just killing myself slowly. My urges for alcohol have diminished significantly but I do get the odd temptation. I could probably handle a couple a real cold beers but then I think it would be a trigger and I would wind up back at ground zero. I was grocery shopping earlier and went by the beer section and had myself a look see but I resisted the urge to buy any. If I do want a cold beer I can always get the de-alcoholized beer which I had in the past and it was fairly good.

I feel more stronger these days and I feel my health is getting better as each day passes. I'm not totally 100% better but I'm getting there. I had a check-up with the doctor the other day and she said my blood-pressure is real good. I used to have very high blood pressure when I was drinking and my doctor was concerned at the time. I still get counselling from an addictions counsellor every month and I find that helps. I might even join AA if I get a chance to make sure I keep on the path of sobriety. Life can be good without be plastered all of the time. I'm doing this all for my wife who is watching me from the heavens above.


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kevinpaul said:
You have been in my prayers ever since you broke the news. I with you friend and know it is very very difficult. Most things that are worth it difficult.
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kevinpaul said:
You have been in my prayers ever since you broke the news. I with you friend and know it is very very difficult. Most things that are worth it difficult.
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Thanks Kevin Paully Woggy...I think your prayers are working very well and I appreciate it very much. All you guys have been very supportive and it has made a difference in my opinion.:)


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BlackSG91 said:
Well I believe today marks my 26th week of sobriety. Since there are 52 weeks in a year it's been a half-year already! I can't believe how time sure flies. I am so glad that I'm not dependant on alcohol the way I was. I hate to think of how I was in the past just killing myself slowly. My urges for alcohol have diminished significantly but I do get the odd temptation. I could probably handle a couple a real cold beers but then I think it would be a trigger and I would wind up back at ground zero. I was grocery shopping earlier and went by the beer section and had myself a look see but I resisted the urge to buy any. If I do want a cold beer I can always get the de-alcoholized beer which I had in the past and it was fairly good.

I feel more stronger these days and I feel my health is getting better as each day passes. I'm not totally 100% better but I'm getting there. I had a check-up with the doctor the other day and she said my blood-pressure is real good. I used to have very high blood pressure when I was drinking and my doctor was concerned at the time. I still get counselling from an addictions counsellor every month and I find that helps. I might even join AA if I get a chance to make sure I keep on the path of sobriety. Life can be good without be plastered all of the time. I'm doing this all for my wife who is watching me from the heavens above.


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Black,

As always, I admire and applaud the efforts you’ve made. Overcoming an addiction, like alcohol, is a very hard and complex thing. You’re doing great, friend.

Keep up the great work!
 
BlackSG91 said:
Well I believe today marks my 26th week of sobriety. Since there are 52 weeks in a year it's been a half-year already! I can't believe how time sure flies. I am so glad that I'm not dependant on alcohol the way I was. I hate to think of how I was in the past just killing myself slowly. My urges for alcohol have diminished significantly but I do get the odd temptation. I could probably handle a couple a real cold beers but then I think it would be a trigger and I would wind up back at ground zero. I was grocery shopping earlier and went by the beer section and had myself a look see but I resisted the urge to buy any. If I do want a cold beer I can always get the de-alcoholized beer which I had in the past and it was fairly good.

I feel more stronger these days and I feel my health is getting better as each day passes. I'm not totally 100% better but I'm getting there. I had a check-up with the doctor the other day and she said my blood-pressure is real good. I used to have very high blood pressure when I was drinking and my doctor was concerned at the time. I still get counselling from an addictions counsellor every month and I find that helps. I might even join AA if I get a chance to make sure I keep on the path of sobriety. Life can be good without be plastered all of the time. I'm doing this all for my wife who is watching me from the heavens above.


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Great news! I'm impressed with your strength!
 
BlackSG91 said:
I could probably handle a couple a real cold beers but then I think it would be a trigger and I would wind up back at ground zero. I was grocery shopping earlier and went by the beer section and had myself a look see but I resisted the urge to buy any. If I do want a cold beer I can always get the de-alcoholized beer which I had in the past and it was fairly good.
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Next time you get to feeling that way, remember that it is a lie. The good times were generally few and far between and had probably ended years before you stopped drinking. After that, it is just chasing. Stay strong, and remember how it really made you feel. Soak up that life brother, and that excellent wit and intellect you have. That's where it's at! As always, you know where to find me.
 
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Congratulations brother Black! Stay strong, and make sure you do NOT buy those two cold beers. There’s no such thing as «just a couple». Being strong is not about being able to handle alcohol, it is about doing what’s right. And you’re doing the right thing these days. I’m proud of you.
 
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