Another perspective here............
Your a Brilliant Automotive Mechanic in the highest degree....
Your financially solvent well beyond the average person...........
You have a Loving and Supportive Wife..................
You have a Wife with her own business...........
You have a Healthy Marriage..................
You have a Healthy Son..............
Your daily driver is most guys daydream thats never within reach........
Your an accomplished guitarist and sought out professionally......
You have more musical avenues to take than the average musician.....
Its noted that you worked your ass off for all this.
If your drinking, celebrate your accomplishments and thank the Good Lord for such a blessed life.
When it comes to band mates, even the Beatles didn't have a steady drummer most of there early years.
Read the below article for more perspective about music.
Read how Jimmy Page recruited the other members of Led Zeppelin, and what led up to their first show in 1968 as the New Yardbirds.
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Take a page from Page himself, bank roll your own endeavor.
Most importantly take some time off, a day or two, maybe even a week, and really look at what a wonderful full life you have been Blessed with!
All this is said from a heart of love for you, Robert the person.
My own life slipped away from not acknowledging all the good I once had.
You watch football much... The Ravens (best record in the NFL this year) QB Lamar Jackson lost in the playoffs because the game he was playing mentally was not the same one on the field.
Your Winning Robert, don't let that mental stuff say other wise. We all fight this.
This insight here in this post, is for myself and anyone with a heart to hear.
John