Battling Alcoholism...

BlackSG91

BlackSG91

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Well it's been a while since I've been on this forum since I moved to a new place and haven't had a real chance to set up my computer. I'm using the library computer for now. I've been battling alcoholism since my wife and mother passed away over two years ago. I've quit before back in mid 2015 after drinking massive amounts of over-proof rum. I was hearing voices and actually seeing demonic entities in my house at the time and it was scary for sure. I guess the alcohol withdrawal caused an open cap in my soul allowing these entities to mess with my mind.

This past early September I was on a drinking binge. I drank so much one day that my roommate called the paramedics and spent overnight at the hospital. Then a couple of days later on a Friday I drank nearly 120 ounces of 80 proof rum and I was a complete wreck. That was enough alcohol to nearly kill me. My roommate called the ambulance again and I spent almost 6 days in the hospital.

It was like living hell from the alcohol withdrawal while I was in the hospital. I had the shakes real bad & I couldn't hardly sleep within 4 days and my blood pressure and heart rate were drastically very high. I spent about two to 3 days in emergency. The first day they didn't give me any medication to help with my high anxiety or any food because they thought I would go into a coma. I finally received some medication (Valium) through an intervenes. By the 2nd or 3rd day I received a cardio electric shock to stabilize my heart beat which was irregular at the the time. They gave me an anaesthetic to put me out during the cardio process.

I finally got moved to an area where I was able to get full meals and my appetite came back because I wasn't hardly eating while I was drinking. I had a hard time walking while going to the washroom. My legs felt numb due to the excessive drinking. I felt like an old man. They gave me various medications and vitamins to improve my health. When I finally got discharged I was fairly a bit better but not 100%. It was a wake-up call for me to stop drinking. It was one of the most awful moments in my life that I don't want to go through again.

This Friday will mark 4 weeks since I had a drop of alcohol. I'm eating more regularly now and starting to feel better & sleep better. I'm back on my medications for anxiety and depression and I'm also taking blood thinners so I don't get any blood clots which can cause complications. If it wasn't for my roommate calling the ambulance I would probably be dead by now. I'm keeping on the path of abstaining from alcohol. Withdrawal is a really hard experience I went through. If anyone out there has any stories to share about troubles with alcohol or any other drug, please share. I'm just glad to be alive and doing fairly well at the moment. I don't want to go back to my old lifestyle.


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Glad your back Black --- and glad to hear you have gotten things under control. I wish you much success, HEALTH and a long future. :)
 
Yo Black, happy to have you back! Two weeks ago my oldest long time friend suffered from cardiac arrest and respiratory failure. In other words his heart stopped beating, his lungs stopped breathing, he was dead when the paramedics got there. He is alive now and in rehab getting use to walking again after a triple bypass. He abused alcohol for most of his life as well as smoking cigarettes. He was sober for 2 months when he had the heart attack and I hope and pray that he stays sober because this was killing him.

PLEASE Black, you are a great guy when you are sober and I pray that you too will be able to overcome alcohol addiction and sorrow from your losses. We are here for you!!!
 
Damn Black man better stay off the Demon Alcohol for it kills ya. Im sure its a struggle everyday to do but you be hard core dude. Ive never even heard of people drinkin that much and living so stay sober Black.
 
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Yo Black, happy to have you back! Two weeks ago my oldest long time friend suffered from cardiac arrest and respiratory failure. In other words his heart stopped beating, his lungs stopped breathing, he was dead when the paramedics got there. He is alive now and in rehab getting use to walking again after a triple bypass. He abused alcohol for most of his life as well as smoking cigarettes. He was sober for 2 months when he had the heart attack and I hope and pray that he stays sober because this was killing him.

PLEASE Black, you are a great guy when you are sober and I pray that you too will be able to overcome alcohol addiction and sorrow from your losses. We are here for you!!!
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I'm glad your friend is doing better and alive. Alcohol is one of the most dangerous legal drugs out that can ruin yourself and others. I have no cravings no more for alcohol and I feel better about it. Thanks for your support. I'm also glad to be back on this forum. I have a new place on the edge of town and the library is downtown so now I have a monthly bus pass to get me anywhere in the Durham region where I live east of Toronto.


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JohnnyGoo said:
Damn Black man better stay off the Demon Alcohol for it kills ya. Im sure its a struggle everyday to do but you be hard core dude. Ive never even heard of people drinkin that much and living so stay sober Black.
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I'm surprised I'm still alive today! I was near death the paramedics told me. I'm feeling much better these days and I hope I don't fall off the wagon again or I'll be a goner. I'm glad I still have the green herbal medicine if you know what I mean.;) At least you can't overdose on it and no hangovers. It also helps me sleep better and take the edge off. :GetHigh:


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BlackSG91 said:
I'm glad I still have the green herbal medicine if you know what I mean.;) At least you can't overdose on it and no hangovers. It also helps me sleep better and take the edge off. :GetHigh:
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It also helps with having an appetite for food. I think this is one of the reasons that Pot is actually very useful for fighting the side effects of certain cancer treatments.

Nice to see you posting, and at least acknowledge what you have to do to stay healthy. Wishing you the best, Black... :H5:
 
Brother Black, Buht Weeet says lay off the boose. With Boose you lose. and we don't want to lose you. Buht Weet says this so you can live many more years ahead and instead of being sad at losing your mom and wife, you can carry parts of them with you everywhere and let some of their influences loose on friends and even strangers so that their loving hearts can bless you thru blessing others.
 
It is good having you back indeed. No advice here just a very short story. I use to be a happy drunk, the I became a mean drunk. After 3X of getting drunk and emptying the bar while fighting, a police friend came to me one day and told me that the next time it happened they had orders to arrest me. I had a wake up call that morning, along with a HELL of a hangover and said OK it time to stop. I am down to about 1 beer a month now. I always have some around for when friends stop by. You can and will conquer. Just stay strong and focused.
 
When I drink and want to really hit the hard stuff, I switch from 2% to whole milk.

PS, I am adding this part after my initial message.
When I haven't had any milk for as short as a day or as long as maybe 2-3 (kinda long as in world record for me) when I get that first sip of ice cold white magic, I give a whole new meaning to AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I literally feel as if my jones has been met. Crazy but true.
 
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Glad to see you back Black! Those things you had to deal with were very tough. I can't even imagine going through that. It's no wonder you were seeking an outlet for that kind of pain. I'm happy to see you are on your way to conquering those demons! Stay here with us brother and we'll listen and try to help.
 
Black it's good to hear that you made it through that terrible detox brother. You have a lot to be thankful for. I understand you battle with alcohol. I've detoxed in the hospital at least 25 times. I detoxed in the cardiac ward with the heart patients because my blood pressure was so high. I've been haunted by demons, spirits and entities for days... I thought I was losing my mind. I suffered with seizures and uncontrollable shaking and vomiting. I did it over and over again. I blamed everyone else for my drinking. I believed that I deserved to numb my pain. 2 years ago I decided to quit using alcohol forever. I didn't want to die drunk. My health kept getting worse by my drinking and I realized that I had drank a lifetime's allocation of alcohol. I drank it all in 50 years... so I quit. I'm on a lot of psych meds for various mental issues. You can quit drinking. Once you have crossed over the line into alcoholism, you can never drink like an ordinary person again. Make sure your meds are working for you. If you feel stable you probably won't want to drink. Glad to see you back! You're doing a good thing for yourself!
 
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