chilipeppermaniac
Ambassador of Decibels
Robert, NOW YOU KNOW THE HORROR of my entire LIFE but on a different level of TOO MUCH...
In my case of OCD vs Dream vs Ideal living/work/functioning space, I seriously have lacked so much proper SPACE to organize and operate without some huge measure of lack vs where do I put ANYTHING?
Ya see, growing up in a small town house with neighbors all around, no garage, no tools, and no money, I craved space, I craved a garage to put cars in and work on, and I craved tools to go in tool boxes, benches, lifts, paint booths etc.
What I wound up with was a fractured parental situation and a move to an even smaller apartment at age 12, where I was even farther from sources of income I had once had coming in from 4 sources before age 12.
Having managed to find happiness in a stable new family with a stepdad to live with us and our mom, I could manage my lack, and learn to wrestle my biggest demon, lack of patience to get to me dreams. This is when I managed to finish High School, go to college and struggle my way to a degree and then long for a job I could be happy doing so I could one day get a house in the country with space and a garage. Sadly, my first house while decent, had no garage and once again, nowhere to properly house tools in any semblance of order once I began to acquire the ones I would need for my profession of Carpentry/Remodeling and my interests of fixing up cars. The other factor lacking was any kind of EXTRA cash. SO, for 55 years, I have lived with stuff and nowhere I could call the perfect place to set up SHOP in an organized logical manner.
As a remodeler, all my tools have to be mobile. As a remodeler, this means, many tools don't get used every day. and As a remodeler, SO much time is spent loading a truck for a day's work, then driving to the job, unloading the tools, and then when the day ends, packing them all up again and repeating the process for days, weeks, months to follow and never having a systematic place to store everything. My dream has always been to have a place like a shop or garage or barn etc, so I could not only find stuff quickly or repeatedly, but also have the stuff out of the weather, my cars, trucks, tractors etc all out of the weather and nothing lost or ruined for lack of proper space.
So, despite my goals of having a place like this, I find my life still a collection of messes, and yet my current place I reside lacks a "shop" lacks a singular place to organize, and even lacks being a finished home, where the simplest of things like enough closet space for my girlfriend and my clothes to hang, or even finished floors in the kitchen or dining room because of dogs that mess up in the house instead of outside etc etc so to install " finished, nice " floor coverings would be foolish until the dogs die off. SO Forgive me for this long winded story, but I sure am glad Robert knows his breaking points and has not had to suffer so many unsettled scenarios as I have had to simply accept until the time comes when I can make some type of incremental change toward my dream goals.
After all that Liturgy, I still take solace in knowing I have enjoyed a simple philosophy to appreciate the small blessings I do have instead of dwelling on the things or situations that are less than my optimum.
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